I don’t like mirrors. I avoid them whenever I can. It’s not just the fact I am insecure about how I look, it’s more that I catch myself staring intently, looking for any speck of what used to be me; the me that used to have friends; the me that used to be … Continue reading Will I Ever Know Who I Am?
I was eight years old the first time I tried to kill myself. I was already in an unbearable amount of emotional pain from being bounced around the foster care system, being physically and sexually abused, and neglected for the first 18 months of my life. Even after I was adopted I still found myself … Continue reading My Journey with Suicide…a book excerpt
As a kid, I thought my parents were superheroes. My dad worked his butt off, constantly traveling and my mom stayed home to watch six kids. I always felt secure, and I knew that they loved me. There comes the point in your childhood when you realize life isn’t forever. For me, it was a … Continue reading Orphan….by Beka Lombardo
Trauma comes in a multitude of types, forms, variances and degrees. No one person’s trauma can be experienced the same as another’s, nor can it be compared. The biology of our bodies react the same, prompting us to prepare for danger through fight, flight or freeze, but our emotional responses, however similar they may … Continue reading Why Did I Freeze
Trigger Warning... The night sky was dark and cloudy; the streetlights shining a dim glare on the sidewalk and the road beside me. It is late. Only two cars pass me on my walk, their bright headlights shining upon me for a brief moment in time. I am numb. I can no longer feel … Continue reading The Darkness of Night
A quick hello to my readers and a thank you all for following me and taking the time to read my blog. I want to share something a little different with you this week, in light of the events of suicide that occurred this week. I hope that not only will you read it, and … Continue reading So Honored
The statistics are eye opening. One in three girls and one in six boys will experience some form of severe trauma during their childhood which, in most cases, may be the precursor to the one in three that will be affected by mental illness. There was a time, not too long ago, when not only … Continue reading The Stigma of Mental Health